Planning for IVF again-Step 1

Honestly I didn't think I would be in this position.  41 and trying to have another baby but I believe lots of women today are in this position.  They've had their careers, traveled, and scapbooked their trips to Europe. Me, I've done all those things gratefully never thinking it's time to have kids.  Your getting older.  Watch the clock.  I just didn't do that.  I lived my life.  I don't even think I thought about a baby actually which to me now is kinda scary!

So here I am, I am married with two teen children (my stepchildren but I call them mine!), twins that are five about to enter kindergarten and our senior cute puppy dog Belle.  I love my life most times.  It's busy, and fun, and creative but something in me just isn't settled about trying again for Baby#3.

When they retrieved my eggs and my husband's participation (can't say that), they ended up having three strong embryos.  When I say strong I mean, they grade them, A, B, or C's.  I was told mine were strong A-B's.  Okay great let's put three in.  They told me, I wouldn't recommend that.  You could miscarry one, two or all three and be back to the beginning.  We'll we didn't want that.  They put in two and the rest is history. They froze the other and told me we would get billed every year for the storage of such embryo.  That blessed embryo has been stored and cyrofrozen in Rockville, Md for almost six years!

For the last two years the idea of having a son really appealed to me.  When I was pregnant with twins, I definitely wanted healthy girls.  Two little girls.  It's what I prayed for.  It's what I held far into my highest reaching consciousness and it happened.  I was overwhelmed with gratitude and still am.  When I look at my daughters I am swept away with gratitude.

I know I shouldn't ask for one more of anything but that big happy loving patient part of me wants to do it all over again and succeed.  Here's the plan:

1) We meet with my fertility doctor tomorrow to discuss the impact of this choice.  My age, the age of the embryo, the girls and moving forward with medical appointments.
2) On Day 3 - 5 of my cycle I go into the fertility center (luckily I live close by) to have my blood tested; checking hormone levels.
3) On Day 28 I start my pill pack of light hormones. Birth control pills.  Odd isn't it?  It builds up the lining of the uterus.
4) After completing the pill pack, on Day 1 of the next month, I start hormone shots and progesterone related hormones.  I believe it's for 15 days.
5) Schedule Embryo Transfer.

I'm excited as one can imagine but also very nervous.  I'm actually looking forward to the process, to seeing my doctor and the group of fertility specialists I worked with.  It felt like family there.  The hardest part is waiting.  I'm sure many women find that the longer you wait for something, the more intense the feeling of having that something is.  On with the show.  The countdown to Day 3 is on..............

Because we live next door to the U.S. Naval Academy I decided I'd love a nautical nursery.  Sounds cool right?  I love the sleigh crib which matches our bed in the master bedroom.  I hope and I pray as I go on this journey.  I have ten days to go to begin.